This morning I received an early email. When I saw it in my bed on Sunday morning while my family went to worship without me…again!…I rolled my eyes, turned my phone off and rolled over. Now, make no mistake it was not my sweet friend I was annoyed with. However, not only did I not want to answer, I just couldn’t. I didn’t want to think about how I am…because it isn’t how I want to be.
For me so often, to be is to do. I cannot do right now. I am so ill and I don’t know why. I need help and I don’t know where to turn. But I pray God will answer. I know He will.
This afternoon while I was responding to my precious friend who loves and cares for us so deeply, I realized how grateful I am for her and that she reached out to me and that it forced me to analyze how I’m feeling instead of trying to cover it up, push through and wish it wasn’t there. I can’t do that anymore. I have to turn and face it and know that God knows and He cares. It’s evident each day as my dear friends and family reach out in love through texts, emails, calls, cards and visits and more. I am so thankful for those who are committed to walk this road with us, and the One who will never leave us or forsake us.