I have often found myself strangely wide awake in the wee hours of the morning close to Christmas, even though not long before I felt like I would drop at any moment from shear exhaustion. This night t is no different. Yesterday on ‘Christmas Eve Eve Eve’, as my children call it in an attempt to feel closer to Christmas Day, I ran a 6 hour gift wrap marathon. Thanks to the help of my sweet girl we got it all done. Phew. I have to say it was overwhelming. I felt like I would never cross the finish line. My office currently looks like Hallmark thew up in it and then sprinkled glitter on top.
Right now its as though that mess matters not as I have been transported from those earthly gifts to a midnight clear just thinking, pondering, wondering just how my Savior, Messiah…my most perfect gift…was born as a precious child and Word became flesh to save us. As a mother I wonder, how did Mary feel? Was it surreal? Caring for the One whom she needed to care for her? How could His tiny heart so full of love fit into one so small? Could He hear the familiar angels sing? How could the story I have heard since I was born seem so new to me?
I have been drawn to the words of classic Christmas carols and it’s like I have never even heard them before…though I have sung them my entire life. All is calm, all is bright.…Holy infant so tender and mild…sleep in heavenly peace. Let earth receive her King. Let every heart prepare Him room. God and sinners reconciled. Glory to the newborn King. Peace on earth and mercy mild. Join the triumph of the skies. Heaven and nature sing. O come let us adore Him, Christ the Lord.
Many have prayed that our family that we would feel the presence of Christ this Christmas and it is amazing how close He is to me. Right here. Giving me this silent night with such peace. Not the kind of peace that comes from the crossing off of my to-do list or having my kitchen stocked with all the ingredients I need for the days of cooking ahead or all the presents wrapped under the tree. But peace that I am His, because He chose to come to earth as a baby to live and die, for me.
This is what I need…not the items from my mommy wish list or all of my to-do’s crossed off. I need this worship. What a gift. These sacred, holy moments where heaven bends to earth and with open heart and open hands I sit in awe and wonder. Just sit. At His feet. Quiet from the noise and chaos. Rest from this earthly marathon. Peace. He has come, friends. Enjoy Him. Cherish Him. Draw close to Him. Celebrate. Rejoice. Be blessed by His presence this Christmas. As you come and adore Him, may you also have your own silent night!