This was my view this 3rd-snow-day-in-a-row November morning…a very January-like scene from the top of a huge downtown medical building.  While I was so thankful to be there…I couldn’t help but feel so very small…just another sick patient waiting to see one of the important people we all seem to be waiting on.  On my way into the office for my appointment a doctor stopped me and said, You look just like a movie star.  Her name is Amy Adams!  I smiled and laughed and she said, I bet you hear that a lot.  It strangely lifted my spirits, took the edge off and made me feel much more comfortable to be there…knowing and remembering I was supposed to be. God paved the way and made an opening for me.  We met with my very confident, young (she’s my age!?) and matter-of-fact surgeon and the months of dealing with this pain will be presumably and completely ended in 2 1/2 weeks with a robotic outpatient surgery…the day before my original consultation was scheduled.  When all was said and done I thought…Huh…that’s it?  It seems so simple!  What have I been so worried about?

As we walked out of the office everyone was talking about the sudden burst of sunshine.  There was a HUGE hole in the clouds and light was beaming down from the glorious heavens and for that moment, the snow stopped. I didn’t feel so small and unimportant anymore.  I felt like God was speaking directly to me saying  See! I’ve got this. I’ve got you!  Have no fear!  I’m right here with you!  And just like that…there was a Light at the end of this long, dark tunnel.

I heard this song on the way to my appointment and I heard the Truth, but didn’t really listen to it.  Sometimes God has to literally blind me to get my attention I guess.  I am so thankful in the midst of the storm, God showed up in His marvelous Light reassuring me that He is and has been right here with me every step of the way.  Not only does He know my name, He knows me and everything that concerns me.  I am thankful that He is in every.single.detail.  I am thankful that to Him I am not just another sick patient…I am a priority.  Sometimes when I think about how big God is, I feel so small and unimportant.  And every time I do, He shows me I’m wrong.  And I am so thankful.

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”  Deuteronomy 31:8

By day the LORD went ahead of them in a pillar of cloud to guide them on their way and by night in a pillar of fire to give them light, so that they could travel by day or night.  Exodus 13:21

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”  John 8:12